i quit this bitch.

ahh! if you could only work at my job for ten seconds you'd attempt to strangle yourself, though it sounds ridiculous... you have never met my clients. how they chase me up a wall, tease me with my own sanity on a string, tearing at my patience like a kid at the first present Christmas morning. You may think ha, my job is harder and why did she bitch, we all have to work. well blah blah blah to you. do your clients yell and scream like a 5 year old in toys r us, as you drag them from their corderioes, when in reality she is 24. no no, i don't think so. oh it was oh so easy at the bank, they yelled so much less, and i just walked away when they did. not so much of the no, i'm not doing it. why should i do it, i dont want i'd rather just complain about it then just doing it.. a basic you suck reminder at every corner on a floersent pink post it, just in case i had forgot along the way. well you know what, i just want to walk the fuck out and on the way, remind you that, hey you suck too and hey i fucking hate you too. thanks so much for you time, why don't you shove your nasty ass attitude up yours and maybe this is why you have no friends. who wants to be an assholes friend? you know who? no one.

dedicated to the people who torment my life.

curiosity killed the kitty

so i cant even help but wonder, but mr says that door is off limits.

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Now playing: The Academy Is... - Almost Here
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stop it your making me itch.

no matter how much time is passed there are certain people how have a magical way of getting under your skin without even trying. just reading his words gives me a knot in my stomach and for no real reason, he doesn't even know i can see his words. he probably can't even remember my name. but the ability to still give me an uneasy feeling is remarkable. is it better to have a life full of those who leave such lasting impressions, who can still move you after years of not speaking? or is it easier to just forget and move on. I know that i have never been one that easily let go of a relationship, it always makes me so sad to lose a friend and as we get older it happens more and more for whatever reasons. whether it be becuase we grow in different directions or we hit an impasse which leaves has no solution but to dissolve the friendship.

i began this about someone completely different but it got me to think about miss jp and the dissolution of our friendship. In so many ways does it break my heart to lose such a dear friend. However, there is only so many breakdowns a friendship can withstand until it comes to be too much of a heartache. I will always care about her but will have to wish her well from afar becuase I am sticking to me choice to let this space remain.

just thinking about these two people and how much they bother affected my life is incredible and torments me to think that I don't speak to either of them anymore, even know i know it is for the best. it all goes back to my original thought and how it is so difficult for me to break from a friendship even though it for the best. We let people get so close to us and then when its time to say goodbye it is unbearable. i suppose it is just part of transitioning but it makes me sad nonetheless.


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Now playing: Just Surrender - In Your Silence
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so today i was wondering what i would do with my life without the internet? how would i procrastinate?? i would probably be well read, rather than starting half a dozen books to never finish them. i would most likely paint more, or do school work on time. ha, what a joke. i think tv and me would become much closer friends and i would watch hours on end or worthless television, like top model, but oh how it sooths my soul. tyra how your references to your mama make me chuckle. i almost get sucked into watching her talk show, but i feel i just can't waste that much of my life to tyra banks no matter how convincing she can be. oh but the hills are on and i will waste a half hour of my life watching them stare at each other, becuase some home silence with lc is entertaining, its like crack, i just can't get enough even though i know i am slowly killing myself. i will leave with a picture of one who stole my heart....

Reptar. you cute little buddy.

green is rad. meeeoooowwww...


soo thiss wass my mister kitty.<3
well i decided to start a blog becuase I find myself with random thoughts that i'd like to dive into even though they may be ridiculous and worthless.


of course now i am out of thoughts. i love lucy will have to sustain me in the meantime.