ugh.

fist of all its is fucking freezing, i'd like it to stop please because apperantly i have no idea how to dress properaly for cold ass weather. My lack of weather readiniess is so evident that the unit corrodator wrote my a note to wear real shoes with socks tomorrow, incase i got confused. HA. rather than my BCBG grandma shoes I wore today, only one person will know the shoes I am referring to but trust me their grandma shoes. ok so now on to real life...

so last night i wasted my life away reading a book I have already read, ughhh new moon. I need to use my time more wisely but that is so much less fun. Today as I was driving to school, I began to to daze off, as usual as I sat in traffic, I was just picture the pecies of my life drifting away, everything (mostly at work) is so chaoitc and constiantly changing that it is pull apart everything else. I just need to pull everything together, just tie the loose ends up becuase it is becoming ridiculous. I am basically an organized person, I need things to be set up so that I can fucntion on a daily basis. I can't stand lookig for something, it is just a waste of the oh so limited time I have, mostly at school. At my apartment, I spend at least 30% looking for something I put down somewhere never to see again, this is largely because I have to cats who think they are pack rats. Anything I put down that they can pick up and carry away in their mouth I will basically never see again. I think they may have stole my pearl necklace. WTF.

See even my post needs to be pull together, so back to my orginal point, uugh. School is crazy. I think every teacher is slowly losing their mind in a sea of paperwork. It is less than delightful. Alternate assesments have been haunting my life for too long now. I have 6 in three different grades and I stayed after school today to get it over with becuase I can't find the time in the day. I just feel guitly for taking that away from my kids, don't they need every instructional moment they can get? It would be different if this were just one thing, but everytime I turn around, its something else I am supposed to hold off on teaching to compelete. Well I am done with that, I like teaching so I will continue to do so and use my spare to compelte all the bs.Which it really is, as I sat there and went throgh my SIX alternate assesment I thought how much bs this truley is and for mutliple reason. 1. any child can get a 4 depending on the teacher, so is it really a test of the student or how creative the teacher can be and is that the point? second it is crap that they don't give us any support within the classroom, we should have subs or time alloted solely to do this since it is required. 3. Its just dumb. 4. beucase I was at school until 6 30 completeing it. 5. becuase its dumb.

but a highliht would be one of my less verbal kids asked my an unprompted full question, and that made me really happy. :) plus my kids are actually starting to learn my name. :)

is it wrong that I am too mentally exhausted to walk 15ft to the kitchen to get my food.... :(